Cautiously optimistic...you know what that means!

I've tested with 5 HPTs today (3 different kinds: 2 CBE +/- tests, 2 cheapie internet strips, and 1 cartridge style...6 if you count the CBE OPK digital) and..........

BFP!!!

The morning began on a negative note. I got up at around 7am to pee. I PIAC and had DH read the result while I went back to bed. I was too nervous to look myself. Not realizing that a super faint line is still a positive, he came in and said there was only 1 line. I cried and he held me.

A few minutes later, he went back to the bathroom and tested with another test. He came into the bedroom with both tests and we both saw the 2nd lines! They were pretty faint though.

I held my pee until about 4 pm and got this one:

Now I just need to get awesome beta numbers tomorrow!!!

Celebrating my birthday in NYC

My 30th birthday was on Friday. Hubbs and I hosted dinner at our house with our best friends. He bought me a chocolate cake from some fancy bakery in NYC by his job.

Then on Saturday we took a bus into the city to see Mary Poppins on Broadway! It was awesome. But I have a confession...I leaned over on hubbs and fell asleep for a minute or two in the second half. Lol...I was so sleepy. I told him later and he then confessed that he had fallen asleep a couple of times too. Lol!

It was a gorgeous day in the city, I'm so glad that it wasn't hotter. We did A LOT of walking and subway riding.

After Mary Poppins we walked much of the way to Sofrito in mid-town Manhattan. It's a very popular, swanky Puerto Rican restaurant. The food was yummmmy. We had "tostones montaditos" which are fried plantains with a topping. Ours was topped with shrimp in a creamy, cheesy sauce. So good.

Hubbs had a churrasco (Skirt steak) with mofongo (smashed plantains).

After dinner, we ordered dessert and what do you know? All of a sudden some upbeat music kicked up and the waiters sung happy birthday to me. I was so embarrassed but it was sweet. The waitress lit my candle twice which means I got to make my birthday wish twice (we all know what I wished for!)

The BIG 3-0!

Today's my birthday! I'm at work right now and I pray this day goes by quickly. I'm getting my eyebrows done after work and then getting home to cook. My BFF, her hubby and son are coming over today to spend some time with me. I can't drink or anything but that's ok!

Phantom symptoms

1) My face is acting up...I have tiny bumps all over my forehead that you can't see really but I can feel it especially when I'm washing my face.

2) I have tiny red bumps on my chest and collarbone area. They aren't itchy or anything...they're just there.

3) I had lots of trouble getting out of bed this morning...I felt my sleep pulling me back in. It was one of those deep heavy sleeps that feel like you're stuck in molasses. (If that makes sense).

4) Constipation (but I'm on progesterone so it could be from that)

I hate phantom symptoms. I've had them for each and every failed cycle. For 2 cycles I had times where I had a very strange metalic taste in my mouth. Sore boobs late in the 2ww. Lightheadedness.

Do I have sensitive skin that is prone to acne breakouts for all my life and can explain away my face bumps? Yes! Have I had these weird little red bumps on my chest and neck before? Yes! Have I ever been sleepy in the morning? Every day, yes! Have I ever been constipated? I'm now realizing, yes, I have been. I am very irregular!

So, you see, all phantom symptoms do is confuse you. They make you think you MUST be pregnant when in reality you may not be. There could be a ton of other reasons why you are having these reactions.

You just don't really know until you test...which I'm doing in 3 days. T&P please!

Oh my aching bum!

DH gave me my PIO shot last night (as he has every night since the ER) and this was the worst one yet! It was so painful going in and now it hurts as I sit here at work. Owie!! It's strange because, for the most part, they haven't really hurt at all. A little pinch going in and that's it. The right side has hurt slightly more than the left for some reason but last night...wow that hurt! I think we're going to stick to the left side for a few days.

In other news, I've been stressing about the absense of my boob soreness. Ever since the day after the trigger shot, I've had sore boobs. Makes sense since it's hcG, right? Well, I'm not sure exactly when it happened but the soreness went away. I think it stopped over the weekend because I definitely haven't felt it in the last few days. So maybe this means the trigger is out of my system? But I hope and pray that I'm pregnant so I hope to start feeling that tenderness again very soon. I know that doesn't necessarily mean anything but it comforted me somehow.

DH and I decided that I'll POAS on Sunday morning which will be 10dp3dt with the beta scheduled for Monday morning. Please send Ts&Ps and any PPVs!

Confession time

Over the weekend, I was so bored! No, that's not the confession.

I was so bored I surfed the web more than I usually do. I ended up obsessively "window shopping" for maternity wear!

I know many of you out there dread maternity clothes...they're expensive, you just want to wear your own clothes for as long as possible, etc. Me? I want to wear maternity clothes now!! Well, not just for the sake of wearing them but because that means I'm pregnant! And people will know, and they will look at my round belly and say "awwwwwwwww".

Ok I just threw up a little in my mouth.

I really don't want people coming up to me and fawning over my expanding baby bump but I so want to be pregnant and wear maternity tees, tank tops, flowy dresses, etc. Even the sleep bras?! And I want a snoogle! Now!

::sigh:: I just want to be pregnant.

Maybe I am! We'll see this weekend.

Now for some maternity wear that I love:

These are from Motherhood Maternity

$40

$30

$20

$25

Guilt by McGriddle

I need someone to slap some sense into me please. I'm totally irrational.

I grabbed a McGriddle on my way out of the RE's office (the office is in a hospital which has a McD's on the first floor) for breakfast and ate it in the car while driving to work. While eating I guess I inhaled (not my proudest moment) a small piece of yummy syruppy goodness down the "wrong pipe". I had a coughing fit which then, somehow, led to a sneezing fit.

And, as you could probably guess, the only thing I could think of were my embryos! "Oh please don't dislodge little ones!"

That's what I get for buying a McGriddle for breakfast :(