Not good news :*(

So the beta was negative.

I found out today at 3pm. Had a good cry with DH on the phone afterwards with my co-workers oblivious on the other side of the door. It's nearly 5:30pm now and I can't wait to get home. I am just so sleepy all of a sudden. It's like a crash at the end of a sugar high. I was excited, anxious, and nervous all day and now all I really want to do is get home, shower, and crawl into bed.

Let the dreams take me away...

Beta tomorrow!

I haven't felt this nervous in a while. Until today, I've been totally calm and collected. Sitting here at work with not much work to speak of, my mind is wandering. I am excited and scared at the same time. I am praying so hard that I am pregnant. I am 14dpiui today and I will not POAS. Don't get me wrong, I'm dying to know. But I am just too much of a wuss to test.

OMG tomorrow will be worse than today. The time between the beta blood work being drawn and THE call will be torture. I have to stay calm. Think of other stuff...what's for dinner, which restaurant should I choose for dinner with a BFF on Wednesday, what book should I read next, am I getting sick (sore throat & chills), ahhhhh!!

My IUI experience so far

On Sunday I went in for another monitoring appointment (b/w and u/s) with DH. We went into the room together and the RE told us my follie was at 21mm, so it had grown another 3mm. Then the nurse gave me the trigger shot of Ovidrel in my stomach. I really thought it was going to hurt more than it did. It hurt less than the blood work does.

So Monday morning DH and I went in bright and early. No b/w or u/s. DH went in and made his "deposit". It was going to take an hour after that to do the IUI so I took the opportunity to take DH to the train station so he could get to work. At around 8am they called me in. The RE came in and verified the names on some forms and the tube with DH's sperm. It's funny because DH was actually worried that they may mistakenly switch samples with some other man...lol. I assured him afterward that I saw his name on the tube with my own eyes.

So the actual IUI process took not even a minute I think. If felt just like a pap smear. The speculum was more uncomfortable than the catheter. Afterwards, I laid there for about 5 minutes, then got dressed and left for work. I actually got in to work 15 minutes early!

For the rest of the day I felt fine. There was a point when I was driving (I had a long drive later on in the day) that I felt light cramps that felt just like a period cramp. Otherwise, I had no more cramping or discomfort.

I have a blood work appointment on Friday which I assume is to verify ovulation and then my beta is scheduled for the 29th. Exciting!

IUI scheduled for Monday!!!

Ahhhhhh!! We're so excited. My follie grew 6mm in 2 days!! It's now at 19mm so I have to go back tomorrow for another ultrasound and they will trigger me there. Then we go back on Monday for the IUI. Woohoo!!!

CD 10 appointment

I have a 13mm follie growing on the right! I was told they grow about 2mm per day. I have my next appointment on Saturday so I pray it will grow!!

IUI #1 is in progress!

Today is CD 3. I went for my baseline monitoring today which consisted of blood work and u/s (from my understanding subsequent monitoring visits will be the same). The nurse gave me the prescription for Clomid which I am starting tonight -actually, in a few minutes.

I have my first monitoring visit on the 10th. I also found out (well actually they told me before but I mistakenly thought that "injectables" and the "trigger" are the same thing) that I will be triggering - luckily it will probably take place during one of the visits so I won't have to do it myself.

I didn't fill the Ovidrel (trigger) prescription because it's $107!! They said I need pre-authorization from the doctor's office so I decided not to fill it today since the nurse told me I wouldn't be needing it for over a week. I left a message with the nurse so they could work it out with the insurance company. Of course, if I end up having to pay, I will. But if I can get it cheaper...heck yeah!