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Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Weird and kinda creepy dream last night

Over the coarse of the day I have forgotten many details but I dreamed that there was a baby with an adult face/head that had an adult brain and all but the body of a baby (like it was some kind of birth defect or condition). This wasn't my baby but maybe like a family member's or family friend's baby.

I remember it being night time outside of a church and some event or something was underway and there were lots of people around. I don't remember seeing anyone I know.

I remember 2 distinct things about this dream: (1) close to the beginning of this dream I recall someone else holding the "baby" and was being really careless with holding her (it was a female), almost to the point of dropping her and so I reached out and took her and held her for the rest of the dream, and (2) toward the end of the dream the "baby" said something like "have you accepted Jesus into your life?" I remember I either responded or was thinking something like "well...I believe in Jesus and I pray but I don't necessarily go to church or anything" but I definitely remember feeling sheepish and caught off-guard about it.

Is that too weird or what!?!?!

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Friday, September 25, 2009

Last night: SYTYCD Live

Good morning blogger world!

I am sooo sleepy...I wish I could call out from work but I have a meeting this morning so I'll have to suck it up.

Hubbs and I went to see the SYTYCD Live show at the Prudential Center. It was nice to do something fun together and now I can say that I saw them dance live...BUT, I wouldn't want to do it again. I don't know what I was thinking but I was kind of expecting them to have new routines and then just throw in some of the crowd favorites.

That was dumb of me, I know that now.

It was just like watching one of their episodes (sans judges and Kat Deely)...they did all of the favorite routines which was cool and they did the 30 second solos, the super hero girls routine and the willy wonka guys routine. They also did 2 routines with all 10 dancers. It was cool, but I'd already seen each and every routine they performed even down to the solos.

Probably the part I enjoyed best was the fact that the dancers hosted the entire show. They took turns and made it funny with mini skits and stuff...that was cute.

We didn't have the best seats, we were pretty much watching them dance from the left side of the stage (like a 90 degree angle). And they had 3 large screens so that the audience could see them better butI don't know why they couldn't turn the screens that were placed to the left and right (there was a giant screen in the center) at an angle so the audience sitting to the far left and right of the stage could see the smaller screens better...that kind of sucked. All 3 screens were facing straight ahead.

Anyway, we got great parking right across from the Prudential Center (although it was $30!!!) so we didn't have to stay stuck in traffic for too long. We got back home at around 10:30 to shower and watch our DVR'd Grey's Anatomy.

I freakin love that show and the 2 hour premiere made me cry as this show usually does. We went to bed at around 12:30am.

So, now I'm sleepy. It's 8:47am and I have a meeting at 10am. I pray that this day flies by so that I can rush home to shower, change into comfy clothes and let the weekend start to soak in!

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Went to the new doc today

The appointment went really well this morning. I am pretty happy with the new doc - and not to mention that this office is literally a few blocks from my house which is awesome.

I waited about 20 minutes to be seen, so that wasn't too bad at all. They have a pretty decent size waiting room with a Tv and stuff so I wasn't too bored (I was also playing with my new DSi.

Pause for a laugh: As the assistant was walking me to the exam room I thought she said "buenos dias" which is a Spanish greeting so I said "buenos dias" back...she looked at me funny and kept walking. I thought about it and realized she hadn't said "buenos dias" she had noticed my "DS" as I was putting it back into my purse and had mentioned it, LOL! Durrr, I felt dumb after I realized but was too embarrassed to explain myself.

Anyway, so here's what we discussed:
Doc was noticeably surprised when I told her my last doc office had planned on putting me on Clomid for 4-6 months unmonitored. I told her I only did 2 cycles and then stopped. She was also surprised that the last place didn't send me for an HSG or a pelvic ultrasound. So, my next steps are to do a round of Provera starting on Saturday and then call the Radiologist to schedule an HSG and Pelvic Ultrasound when I get my period. She said if the HSG shows my tubes are blocked, she will refer me to an RE for treatments. She said if they are not blocked, then she will precribe Clomid for 1 or 2 cycles (especially since I told her that the 2 cycles I had done before did make me Ovulate) and also do IUI's with it as well as possibly FSH. If those 2 cycles don't work she will then send me to an RE.

She was so sweet, when I told her it's been 11 months she said "don't worry. we'll get you pregnant". I thought that was sweet and reassuring. It makes me think of something I heard at a conference this week at work...something like: "there's nothing false about hope".

So...here we go!

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Appointment with new doc tomorrow and other news...


I have my first appointment with the new doc tomorrow morning. I'm nervous and excited. I mean...it's a normal regular check-up but I guess I have high hopes that I will get the help I need with TTC. The place I used to go to was really out of my way, I was only seen ever by the nurse practitioner (not the OBGYN), and I wasn't being monitored on Clomid. So now, I am hopeful that I will get the attention I desire and the referrals/tests/whatever that I need. At this point, hubbs and I have been officially TTC for 11 months now...we are hoping for some answers and solutions.

Guess what! My brother and his wife are pregnant and they found out it's going to be a girl! How exciting! Even more exciting is the fact that at the 60th birthday celebration of my brother's father-in-law at a fancy hall on Friday, my brother announced to the entire table that he chose MY HUSBAND to be the Godfather!! We were so shocked and elated! I was so proud and hubbs was touched. So sweet and wonderful to know that my brother feels that way about hubbs..yay!

One more thing...tomorrow night hubbs and I are going to So You Think You Can Dance Live at the Prudential Center in Newark. It's weird but I'm a little less excited than when I first purchased the tickets. I kind of wish that I had saved the money now. I'm sure we'll enjoy it though.

Anyway, I'll keep you posted on tomorrow's happenings...wish me luck!

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Obsessed with Polyvore.com

Visited Polyvore.com for the first time today to see what it's about...I freakin LOVE it. I've been pretty much obsessed for several hours today playing around with styles. Check out what I put together!

EDIT (9/24/09): I realized that the slides below are automatically updated whenever I create and publish a new "set". This is showing all of the sets I have done to date (not just the ones I did that first day).

Find me on Polyvore

Monday, September 14, 2009

Anniversary plans

Hubbs and I ordered tickets to go see The Lion King on Broadway and then catch dinner at Mars 2112 all for about $240! I'm excited, I LOVE Broadway! We're less than 1 month away!

Sunday, September 13, 2009


I'm spotting again. It started late on Friday but it's really light spotting...almost nothing. Like, barely need a panty liner.

What could this be? Hubbs and I hope that it means that my period is finally regulating itself after so many years on birth control. I just can't wait to have a real honest period.

SO funny how a couple that has been TTC for nearly a year now could get excited about a period. Aren't you supposed to pray you MISS your period, lol?

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

If she asks again, I will throat punch her!

I have a colleague that asks me if I'm pregnant almost every time I see her (which is like once or twice a month). And it's not because she is excited for me to get pregnant -even though she acts like that's why. It's because she thinks I LOOK pregnant! And I'm not just imagining it. Today, for example, I was wearing a dress which tied in a knot right below my boobs and flowed down to my knees. She sat by me today during this day-long meeting I had to attend today, just to say (with a stupid look on her face) "that's a pretty dress...soooo...it's kind of flowy and stuff...soooo??? are you, you know?"

Ughhhhh...how annoying! Every time she does this to me I say NO...I will let you know when I am, I promise (even though, hell no! who the hell are you?!)

What a dumb lady...I'm so sick of her!

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Going for it again

So I haven't lost any weight...I've been enjoying not being on a diet (which I was supposed to be on) or exercising (which I was supposed to be doing).

I decided to go see a new doc and hope for the best. This one is right around the corner from my house so that's good. My last doc was ok but wasn't monitoring me on clomid so I only did 2 rounds on my own and stopped. I have my first appt with the new doc on Sept 24th (the morning of SYTYCD). Hubbs said that we should do it the right way this time. I agree.

We're already going on 1 year soon (Oct) of TTC which is crazy! Oh I forgot to mention, about 25 days ago I started spotting which was surprising because I haven't gotten my period on my own for a long time. I spotted for about 6 days and I say spotting because it was brownish the entire time but at times it was heavy enough to result in small glops of blood in the toilet so...spotting? period? not 100% sure.

So I started charting again today. I figured it might be good thing to do so that I at least have a couple recent weeks of charting for the new doc.

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We begin again...