And I don't really know why.  Maybe it's the rain and some work stress. 
I also think the amount of waiting involved in TTC is getting to me.  It's the unknown involved in this journey...will Clomid work again this time? will i get another BFN even if I do ovulate?  what if I get a BFP and miscarry?  Lately I feel that Ive been handling this pretty well even though it had been 9 months since last ovulating.  But for some reason, today I just feel down, worried and doubtful.
I'm praying that Clomid wont just make this feeling worse (I'm starting cycle 2 tonight). 
On another note, I think I need to lay off coffee.  I don't drink coffee very often and I haven't had any in a couple weeks.  But I had a rather large cup this morning and now I feel some chest pressure (somewhat similar to stress or anxiety).  I've realized recently that coffee makes me feel this way.  Ughh...I'm sure it's adding to my mood.

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